ever experienced the kind of feeling that you are wasting time?... you know.. when you keep making the same excuse of "relaxing" or "chilling out" when asked what you have been up to, and when what you say echoes back into your ears, it sounds really lame.. the point is.. you know in your heart that you are just plain not doing anything constructive...just.. wasting time... :(.. and it's not like you are sick or studying for exams or whatever.. there are tons of stuff you know you will enjoy doing.... and which you have promised yourself you will definitely do when you find the time... like read that expensive travel book that I bought last year.. start working on that jigsaw puzzle... try out that recipe in that "spicy food" cookbook I borrowed.. make salt dough figures.. read the Bible... go for a run or go skating... start watercolour painting.. plan a trip.. anything.... as long as it is constructive...

but no... i end up staring at the walls.. twiddling my thumbs.. at times like this, it seems like i would rather sit in front of the computer and surf aimlessly for strangers' blogs.. or time-wasting games.. or just flipping through the same copy of newspapers or Her World repeatedly.. than stop to think what better things there are to do... and then for some reason i end up staying out or sleeping really late.. as if to make up for the wasted time by doing something constructive in the middle of the night..

and then time just flies by and it is mealtime.. or zz time.. or 3am..or. whatever... sigh.....

inertia-induced madness and lethargy...